Just Another Girl

I remember when I was younger- I thought I was different.
Dedicated years trying to be unique- put my feelings in it.
But no matter my dedication- things remained the same in the world.
In my head I was something special- in reality I am just another girl.
I never got to experience real love because the boys never liked me.
And I always found friends in females that were unlikely.
Cause they were either the troubled typed- who brought me down with their failure.
Or had to move away and transfer before I could tell her...(She was my best friend [Dalana])
I'm just another girl no special features or talents.
I'm just another girl- all Jazz no ballads...
;Cause my life never has a steady beat- it is always chaotic.
When things are all well something seems to stop it.
In elementary I was a tomboy I always tried to compete.
Somehow I always lost and took to heart all my defeats.
& by Jr. High- I had no friends & Ja was the apple of my eye.
Guess I was not popular enough to even give me a hi.
Wow high school was crazy because things progressively got better.
Determined to make a difference in my life, Sr. year would last forever.
Not because of loving memories or things turning around.
But b/c I was just another girl letting myself down.
I didn't have pretty skin, my hair wasn't exceptionally long.
I never had the best gear- my body wasn't fit for thongs (back then, lol).
I was just another girl, I shoulda came to OSU & made it different.
But when my conscience told me I am just another girl, I never did listen.
& now it's 2005 and things are just @ a repetition.
& I acknowledge I am just another girl as my decision.
No more pretending, let the chips fall where they may.
I am no longer putting on a phony facade- no more roles to play.
B/c when I am myself it doesn't work out- neither does it when I'm not.
So hard to keep it going- when things are what you wish they were not.
Cause @ the end of the night when I wash my face, there stands- all that I can deliver.
In my heart, my mind, my soul- I know, I am just another girl standing in the mirror.


Some poem I wrote back a little over a year ago... I still like it, so I thought I would share.